My Rationale

I figured some insight into my thinking process regarding my decision to blog might be helpful to my readers (not that you exist yet)and a great growing/learning process for myself.

I'm 33 years old and a wife and a mother and a professional arts administrator and yet there are things that are missing in my life. I have been dwelling lately on those things.

I'm a professionally trained musician who has not picked up her instrument (not even to clean it) in close to 3 years. I have moved 7 times in the past 10 years and have lived in 5 different states. I have not lost my baby weight and my son is 2 1/2.

So instead of just thinking of all that I've lost, I need to focus on all that I've gained and make myself even better in the process. Plus, all the yelling at my sweet husband was turning me into the crazy, scary "kept woman" lunatic that I thought only existed on TV. And not adding alot to my marriage, for sure.

I have thus taken some steps back towards sanity, and as I have no job at the moment, I find myself with time on my hands. I will be talking alot about my weight loss journey and struggles as well as my P90X exercise regimen. I am exploring the Midwest again - this time by choice and for keeps. And I am passionate about music again, in large part to my "5 boyfriends".

Finally, and most importantly, I am seeking "something big" to pursue in my life and I don't know what that will be yet. So stick around and help me figure it out. Should be quite a trip.

Here I go again.....